death doesn't come knocking

Sometimes you have go through the grind; to realize the truth behind the state you are in or have surprisingly found yourself in. Then you realize there are no sudden happenings and that everything is meant to be the way it is. We often forget that the only time we have is now and not then or when. The people, events and situations are all meant to be experienced when they happen in real time not in flashbacks or fast-forward. I recently lost my father. I say lost, because I feel like I took some wrong turns on the highway to moulding our relationship. I could have done things differently like Maybe, be more aware of his feelings and less selfish of mine but now, the moment has passed and there is no returning back to the past. Only, if I am looking for self pity and free drinks from strangers at a bar.

Starring at a life less body and wishing you could wake them up, just to ask them how they feel or felt about their life and what you meant to them? It’s almost like trying to satisfy my own insecurities and feed the ego in one last desperate bid.
Just then you see the stillness breath a new meaning into your own space. That’s when you realize that the people in your life never really leave you or go to far from where you are. They just wait for you to realize and become apart of your experience. I am sure that the only way you make up for all the lost time is to be aware of the moment and start living life before it out lives you. All the time spent planning, contemplating, wanting, hoping should be converted into experiencing the joy of being alive. That way the sprite lives on forever because you are connected by the experience of being. Anyway, all that is physical is bound by time. Now, this way you have forever to celebrate the people who mean or meant a lot to you by living their values, sharing their knowledge and experiencing their joys.

Celebrate yours and another’s achievements, read, travel, love, dance, smile, laugh, sing, share, jump, be free and fearless this is the only way to stay alive (I am sure you have a couple of things you would like to add to the list).
The past has happened, the future is a series of probabilities and NOW is for the living.

Choose with wisdom and courage.